Satur...hmmmm.

So it is Sunday. And not Saturday, which was the day I had decided I should post my wishes for the week to come.

But part of what I am working on is this idea of "shouldness" and how frustrating (ah, you see? FRUSTRATING again) it is when one makes a plan, even just for oneself, and then it is foiled. And if the overall idea is to not feel frustrated, then maybe one path to that is to NOT DO THINGS THAT LEAD TO A FEELING OF FRUSTRATION. And if one thing that is frustrating for me is foiled plans, maybe one way to avoid that is to NOT make plans. Hmmm.  And perhaps also if I do make a plan, and then it doesn't happen, maybe another path is to LET MYSELF OFF THE HOOK for anything I did that contributed to the plan's failure. Baby steps, people, baby steps.

Which is all tied in to what I want for this week:
1. COMFORT: particularly of a physical nature. I want to feel comfortable in my body - like all the parts are running smoothly and in cooperation.
2. FLEXIBILITY:  as in not feeling so grippy about when and how and where things are happening (SEE ABOVE). If things are happening, that is ok, that is enough, that is plenty. And things are always happening, so that's a comfort. (HA. See that? I love words.)
3. ABUNDANCE OF FOOD: I have been having some trouble with this lately. With feeling like it is ok for me to eat when I'm hungry, and that there is food for me to eat that is going to feel good and fueling. So I am going to go to the grocery store, and I am going to buy lots of food, and then I am going to stash it all over the place, so it is always handy and delicious.

And what happened with last week's list?

It was very helpful to think about meeting fears, instead of girding my loins against them. I think it did contribute to the speed at which my horrific temper tantrum on Tuesday night passed over.  Before and during the temper tantrum, however, I definitely started punching LONG before punching was justified. And it was because I am scared.

Warmth. AH, in this I was most definitely blessed. TWO whole days of pretend spring. It was amazing. I am grateful. Thank you.

Not feeling guilty about eating other people's food? This did not manifest so much. Opportunities were limited, which is ok, and just means I should continue to keep my eyes open. And anyway I think this week's want is a more accurate description of what I was feeling last week....

HAPPY SUNDAY, EVERYONE! The little queen bids you Good Week....