Tastiness

Let us consider our senses. And tasting in particular.

I have found these last few moments (days? weeks?) that I am a hollow-bellied beast when it comes to treats. And not "treats" like dried fruit and fresh salad, although they of course have their place. I am talking about potato-chip-hot-fudge-covered-deep-fried-snickers kind of treats. And alcohol. And smoking. And deep breaths of strongly smelling perfume.

Which is confusing, because I have been meditating. A LOT.  And I have discovered ASMR, originally from This American Life (the show on Tribes), and then I've become best fantasy friends with this woman, who has made Dutch my official favorite accent. (SIDE NOTE: Jason totally cracked me up by quoting Lord of the Flies at me when I told him about the wonders of ASMR.  "Sucks to your asmar.." he said. Which struck me as particularly funny because the original quote was about Piggy's asthma, right? Which I also used to suffer from. CIRCLES....)

So I thought meditating and focusing on my breath and all that goodness was supposed to result in me being all light and vegetarian and viceless.

Boy was I wrong.

Apparently meditating and focusing on my breath and dancing a lot results, for me, right now at least,  in a lot of nasty-talk-smart-aleckness-eating-of-ice-cream-putting-my-foot-in-my-mouth and ENJOYING it. (SIDE NOTE: Speaking of feet in mouths, the other morning Lil and I were stretching, which I love that we can do together again, and as she bent over her knees in butterfly position - we were knee-to-knee - she put my big toe in her mouth. It was a shockingly strange experience. I said, "What was that about, baby?" and she said, "It looked good." I laughed and laughed and she looked at me like I was off my nut, because of course, why not put someone else's toe in your mouth?)

And I keep thinking, OK. Let's just let this happen. As they say, does a seed make effort to sprout? Let's try a little effortlessness. Let's try a little open focus.

The weather 'round here is cooperating beautifully. This morning I said to the sky, after bowing to the dogwood, "Sky, you are really showing off today!"  And it was.

So that's what I'm thinking about here. Not willing myself to be happy. Indulging in the raunchy old lady who has come to visit.  And considering the joys of other people's feet....